50!!!!

So, after missing my goal, I have reached it and now lost 50 pounds from the start of my pre-op diet that started on April 8th (I have the date so ingrained in my head, as I remember the somewhat dreaded countdown to the liquid diet). I really am so so happy to have lost 50 and feel great about it. I feel like I have really plateaued since my doctor's appointment (perhaps I let my excitement blur my judgement), but happy that I am seeing some movement! Though, I must add that I have been ravenous..I mean really hungry. I think I am making decent choices, which helps and obviously is important, but I don't think the hunger has subsided at all post my last fill..i.e. I had 3 homemade tacos last night..in retrospect, I should have just had 2 but I was still hungry! and it was real hunger versus head hunger..though, I probably should have waited about fifteen minutes and then seen if I was still hungry. anyways i think i need to go back for a fill adjustment..

So, very happy and just looking forward to the future...I just need to continue my focus. the 40-50 pound loss I have done at least 3 or 4 times over my lifetime and it has always ended there and I regained it..I am determined to make this different (it is a lifestyle) and continue..I must not rest on my laurels and continue...I will have to work at it, but I am optimistic. Literally, every morning I wake up excited to step on the scale to see any movement (i try to only count Mondays but I can't resist..i know it can play mind games)..but, that feeling of excitement is great...

so, I think that is it for now..was a long week and have to go into work for a bit today and tomorrow but I am going to try to stay positive about it..especially after I just had a great pilates session..

Thank you so much for everyone's continued support! I'm going to do some more commenting later tonight when I have more time to catch up on all the blogs!